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Archive for June, 2003
Damn i got the worse case if cramps..shit..lemme shout some people out right quick um..Madrhymesmith, my boy going to the airforce, god bless you sweety and dont mess up that pretty face 
, um cedricthomas1 - the silliest person i know, my bestest friend who always looking out for his lil sis.negro u ain called me in a week QQn..and i would shout out my other OTHER best friend but i dont wanna start no shit.lol. Man i seen the b.e.t awards lmaoo tell me why DEBO brought his ass on stage more than once lol…AND 50 cent and NELLY, DAMN…SOME SEXY MUTHAFUCKAS!..SMH@THIS GHETTO ASS IMING ME…i dont like thugs boo..we dont mess well..lol. Cant no one tame me QQn…heheh but anyway..4 more days til my b-day yay! im going to the CLUB THAT NITE fugg the dumb shit..im going to shake my ass and drink. Lemme see whatelse i wanna get off my chest. Everyday i learn more and more about myself, and my ways and i must give it to men to deal with me cause im a case to deal with. But im WELL DAMN WORTH IT 
. LAWD AND WHY MY EX EX trying to get back with me, i hated that negro, 2 yrs of his bullshit and word got out that im looking better than ever and he blowing up my house phone the hell is wrong with men, didnt want me when he had me now he jockin me. Im like “shooting mini-mi finger” @ him. FUCK THAT , kiss the blackest part of my phat ass cause that niggas love dont live here anymore
TIP OF THE DAY
Let the haters hate you, dont be fugged up about it cause they want to be you and be proud OF WHO YOU ARE!!!!!
No commentsWomen we must remember that we are ALL Beautiful and never let a man tell you anything different. We are beautiful creatures who are able to bring life and man would be lost without us…Bever let a man be your whole world, love yourself enough to make yourself your world and always remember if you cant depend on anyone else, you can always depend on yourself. Life it too short and to precious to waste on b.s. Life life to the fullest and ride the wheels off of it. now on another note…MY BIRTHDAY IS 9 DAYS AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! lol.
Ok um lets see what the hell is new with thea? um….ok lemme paint u visual of what ya girl looking like right now..i got on a wife beater..well (GAP TANK TOP) lol sounds better, and striped calvin klein pajama bottoms lol yea them menz…
lmaoooo..but anyways…and my hair is pulled back with a pencil holding it up …smh@being around white people too damn long lol…..but anyways all day i been real happy, dont know why, doing things i wouldnt normally do and been singing all DAY! cant stop. I realize im turning 22 and i want to change my life around. alter a few things..and no i did not break up with my boytoy lol… dont want to give the wrong impression but we are fine.
TIP OF THE DAY
Let a man be a man, they need this like water
Chillin here with Allan :-)
ok Allan IS RIGHT HERE …well im sittin on his lap showing him my site saying wassup to da fanz..he impressed..he DIGGIN IT YALL!! lol..but yea..yall wanna pic of us kissin? lmaooo hell nah you know i dont put no lame shit like that on my site…Sorry baby, but i will post a pic of him up to show everyone how fine he is ..um what i did today, i went to the gym, and then i went to meet up with a client who want to refinance and network with him and my brother so he can do a application, then i did a little shopping, then i went to school and left early we got out EARLY!!!!. hehe, he love my shit yall.lol, finally someone man enough to handle this (He made me put that)..SEXY LIL THUG YOU!!!!!!!!!! He sittin here asking” Who the hell are all those peeps on ya buddylist?” LOL….Why he gotta look at that smh… QQn@Allan @ QQn@the screen.We bout to do what grown folks do,lmaooooo, well ok only few more times, lol PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SMH@you people who look at this regularly..GET A FUGGIN LIFE….LOL anyways…Thanks for the emails and yall supporting me..thats really cool and also to yall fellas who keep my journal on ya favorites list and keep an update on my life..bigups to yall..um im on my way to class…SMH@allan calling me at 10am talkin bout “wake yo ass up Nigga” lmao…and to answer a constant email question…Yes i am with someone and He is my world ..least for now..we’ll see how i feel in a month lmao..no im kidding..he’s my baby..and its funny how things work out cause i never thought i would be with him, maybe this was the plan all along, cause day by day i see qualities in him i’ve never had in a boyfriend before…or atleast a real man and trying to do something with his life…suddenly he looked more attractive than as he did as my friend..withis FINE ASS!! lol.but yea i am finally with my baby….um what was i talking about before??…uh..um..oh yea after class this negro supposed to take me out to dinner..so he gonna pick me up and all since i’m doing good in school. YAY@ me finally taking my trip to CALI..damn bout time..lol wahoo…Oh and to my cuzzo….ARE U LUVIN 21 YET? lmao..Ight peace out yall
Ok what i did today..I had to show a investor a couple of our properties and so he can decide if they want to buy it or not from us..ALLAN decided from his busy schedule to tag along with me so we drove down there together. Then lemme see he took me to get some food after that, then we went and walk around downtown and went on the boat ride on navy pier..that negro ain got no sense.we came back home..and he all in my room asking about somethig..and gave him my innocent look so he like “Gurl what u hiding from me” “im like nothing” we laughin at the same time, so i try to run out the room, this fool caught me and held me on the bed and tickled me for like 15 minutes str8 and im sitting there DYING LAUGHING..man i got up i was so sore…so then i look at him and im like”ok you wanna play” lol so i start climbing on him trying to do a wrestling move.lmaooooooo it was hilarious..but he let me win..that dude ain got no sense what so ever lmaooooooooooo….Smh@ 5 yr old games..but it was fun..nice to have someone who ca bug out with you like that…smh@ das why he my baby. lol.anyway tommorrow i gotta drive to milwaukee and see daddy, he barbequeing and all!!!! i dont eat meat tho..but m brother do lol…lucky bastard..that might be a all day job.. I told allan next week i wanna ride with him on his bike..since he wanna put me on it..but im wearing his helmet and kneepads lmaooo….Man i know this is corny but fugg it i feel this way..IN THE J.LO SONG IM GLAD I SAY THIS TO HIM
I dig the way that you get down
(You get down thugged out!)
And you still know how to hold me
(And you still know how to hold me!)
Perfect blend, Masculine
Cant get enough now
I think im in love
Damn finally!
wish he could read this..but Thank you boo Peace out yall
Oh my GAWD!!! ok imma write this real quick and go ..ok i stated that allan was rolling through right…man..ok he rolls through with some flowers, then he asked me again would i be with him and i started crying..dont know why but i did..wow.lol and i told him i would be his girl..Damn….and so i was like yea baby i will..and i figure i can learn to love him..and um..yea we took airythang to a new level and DIDNT KNow it was like that!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, i just got back from the gym”water dripping from all over my booooddddy” lol.
Cockhounds be in gyms boy, niggas go from female to female…smh…lawd..thats why when i buy my house, im investing in a home gym,lol. whatelse um..saw Allan last night, and why after i spent time with him , he calls me as soon as i leaves and we talk for lik 2 hours then call me at 3 am..lol..reminiscing on how we met and all ….and telling me he happy to be in my life im like damn..people just come out the wood-works with sentimental shit. LOL, He say he gonna roll through tonite
3 more quarters til i graduate and i start my master degree program in may of next year..WAHOO!!!!! imma be successful damnit!!!!..
Um and if anyone wanna get me a gift..QQN..i need a planner, and um..lol another tattoo and a cat would be nice, oh also computer games or playstation 2 games… lmaooooooooo thats my list..things i havent gotten around to getting. 16 more days, and like dude from Crank Yankers “YAYYYYYY LADEEEEEEEE” “YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!” lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, peace out
Well i just woke up at 11:52..I told Allan’s punk ass to wake me up at 10am..why this negro call me at 11:52? Why Black folks always gotta be late.SMH@that. Let me see what am i gonna do today, Im going to the gym, uhhh..then there’s a period i might be doing a paper, cause im not going to class tonite. Then Allan gonna be at work tonite and he want me to roll through and its my turn to get us some food so off to popeye’s for him, Kick it with him and prolly wont get home til 3 am….Oh and he told me this weekend he gonna go get my gift..YAY!!! the only good thing i got good happening for my birthday…I re-read my journal and i sound like white girl..all happy and shit.lol i was like “damn i sound like that” on the cpu…lol…PEACE OUT JOURNAL
No commentsSitting here, listening to some music in the background..reclining back in my chair wondering, thinking: What is love? A feeling, an emotion? just a word?, why do people need to feel it? Is it because of the infatuation part of it?or because we need to be needed and love is a great way to let someone know that. You see I thought i knew love, and I thought it knew me. I got mad at someone for atleast a week, a loved one, and didnt care or atleast made myself believe that i didnt care. Then all of sudden it was like i needed them like a breath of fresh air. Like i couldnt breathe without them. But things could not be repaired, oh i dont mean there’s no love there, cause there is but, i mean we couldnt be together in the end. I had no emotion when i discovered we couldnt be together but like a hour after i learned it, i wanted to crawl in a corner and cry. Wondering what the hell just happened and why am i not happy? I thought love was supposed to make me happy? Part of me wants to try harder, part of me wants to let everything go. Part of me wants to just go ahead and be with Allan, Part of me wants to just cut everyone i know off and just keep to myself. Im confused, I finally decided what i want and stop 2nd-guessing about everything and try to make someone work, when i cant be with that person. So my question is What is love? an emotion? just a word?, why do people need to feel it? Is it because of the infatuation part of it?or because we need to be needed and love is a great way to let someone know that. Well? What is love? I wonder……..
No commentsWell I just woke up from a power nap, what am i 4? lol. Today was a fun day, Allan woke me up so i had no choice but to get up, and then i went to my uncles house for a minute and then went downtown to navy pier and kicked it with my brother, Allan wanted me to see him, but i didnt want to get him fired, so another day, knowing him probably tomorrow..WHy do men get jealous over something thats not even theirs? lol I never understood that. Man i think i lost some more weight, this is good. Im moving on with my life and i’m gonna stop thinking about the past so much. I made attempts but i decided it best for everyone that I moved on. But anyways, what else is going on, oh yea Allan trying to get me to go to atlanta with him in a couple of weeks i want to but boy that negro will get me in toooo much trouble.lol. but we will see, um, im trying to get my brother to go to Six flags, he a bigger kid than me.lol. Ok thats all i have for today, til tommorrow, Peace out ~Muah
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